We all have to start somewhere

This is my begining, this is my path, this is what I want to do.

Hunger Hurts, Starving Works.

Highest Weight: 175
Current Weight: 163.5
Goal Weight: 130 (or lower)


I've lost 6.5 pounds in a week. And I'm starving, I'm fighting off the unescapable urge to run downstairs and indulge, over indulge in food, just shove it all down my thoart until my stomach protests and begs me to stop, and then to go even further than that.

But I don't, I'm in control of myself, and I love this feeling.
I love standing up and being dizzy.
I love that feeling when you're about to fall down, but you force yourself to take another step, to go on, because if you stop, you lose.

I like to starve
I like being in control of myself, having some power over what I do, where I go, who I love.
Emptiness is the best feeling a person can experience.


I don't have an eating disorder, I like to starve, it makes me feel good.
I'm comfortable with my body, I'm chubby, sure, it doesn't bother me it makes me feel like a fat, disgusting pig.
Daddy has even started calling me piggy.
Oink, Oink.