Ive decided to start Ana Boot Camp. Just until I lose 30 pounds, then I'm going to eat about 800 calories a day.
Today I realized I hate how I look.
Not just my body and my fat, I mean its not attractive and I do hate it.
But I hate my hair.
I hate my acne-scared face.
I hate my clothes.
I want to change. Badly.
I'm on day 2 of ABC. I had about 400 calories today.
And I got new sneakers so I'm going to be using my treadmill more often, although I don't count exercise on this diet.
Anyway, I have some new rules for myself, I like them.
1. Never ask for food.
I mean, never. If someone is eating something, I can't take some, I can't ask for some, basically, no scrounging.
2. No more meat.
Boyfriend is vegetarian. Best friend is vegetarian.
Fuck meat, I hate it anyway. Its full of calories and hardly any vitamins.
3. I have to eat in front of people suspicious about my eating.
So far that is no one. But hey, maybe if I get skinny someone will care enough to notice.
4. I have to burn half the calories I eat.
If I eat 300, I burn 150.
No if, ands, or buts.
5. It must be offered.
And I have to refuse the first time.
6. It has to be healthy.
I mean, healthy healthy. Fresh fruits and veggies are what I will eat first.
7. It has to be the diet version.
Low Fat Cottage Cheese, Reduced Calorie whatever.
These are my 7 Diet rules.
Use them, edit them or ignore them, your choice.
Calorie Goal Today (Abc 2)
500
Intake: 391
Tomorrow is a 300 day. I might just fast. Hopefully.
-Until tomorrow,
Piggy
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